More Surgery

Alex has to have surgery again. They said yesterday that his eyes are not correcting themselves.

It's a good thing that I was exhausted yesterday when we went because I probably would have flipped out. But I was too tired for it to really sink in. I really didn't get any sleep the night before between Frog in the bed and Alex waking up all night because his little belly was hurting. So I was barely awake at 8:30 when we were in there.

So, when we were done with the appointment, I went right upstairs and met with the surgery scheduler and just went and did it. It's scheduled for March 16th. Which is 3 days after I get back from Las Vegas. Which kinda sucks because I'll be worrying about it the whole time I'm there. :( SIGH. Oh well, I don't want to waste any time. So I just have to do it. He came through the other surgery just fine. So hopefully this one will be just the same.

The differences between my children and other misc stuff

My children are so different. They are practically polar opposites. I never realized that they could be SOOO different.

Frog is needy and clingy. He has always been this way. He needs someone to occupy him. He needs to be told a million times a day that he is loved. He needs to have his faith in his family "reinforced" constantly. And I do mean, CONSTANTLY. It's very sweet but can really get on your nerves. He hates to sleep alone, spend time alone or do anything "alone".

Alex, on the other hand, is extremely independent. He plays by himself all the time. While he likes to be carried around, he also likes to be put down and wander around and do his own thing. He will sit for hours sometimes and play by himself. He loves to go to bed in his own bed. When it's bed time if I tell him to show me his bed, he runs right into their room and jumps on his bed, climbs in and waits for me to climb in with him. Of course, he only stays in there part of the night but that is not something I could ever get Frog to do. EVER.

I'm kinda tired lately. Lots of stress. It's driving me crazy. Which is why I think I am so "edgy". I don't know. It's like the constant stress all the freakin time has worn down my resistance to stress. I used to be able to deal with stress. I used to be able to handle everything. I would just keep pushing and I'd get through it. But that BS with my mother last year, I think that killed any "resistance" I had. SIGH.

My interview at Torrid was a colossal waste of time. I was SO annoyed. The manager was supposed to interview me and she wasn't there. An "assistant manager" did my interview. I was less than impressed with her. A LOT less than impressed. I also realized while I was doing the interview WHY I work for myself. The thing is, I WANT that discount. I need new clothes. I would LOVE to just throw out all the freakin clothes in my room(save a few items) and replace them all. Plus paying the taxes in to the government would help tremendously at tax time. Keep my from owing too much.

I need to relax man. I wish Jenae would go ahead and book my spa day already. GRRRRR! That will probably never happen. SIGH.

Note to Self

When discussing medication with the doctor, remember to discuss everything you are taking including herbals!

I had my little discussion with the dr this afternoon about my meds. I was dreading it honestly.

So I tell him that I am taking Echinacea and Goldenseal. It literally looked like a lightbulb went off in his head and he says to me, "You didn't TELL me you were were taking those! Why didn't you tell me??" Of course then I'm like UMMMM. Because... I don't know. LOL!

Apparently taking certain herbals, especially goldenseal, impedes the absorption of certain medications. Specifically my Zoloft. SO, I am to stop taking all herbals and see what happens.

He wants to put me on some "anti-psychotic". He says he knows I'm not psychotic but he puts people who are taking other anti-depressants and can't get rid of that "edge" that I'm complaining about on them. I don't know about it. First I'd have to wean Alex and I'm not ready to do that. Second, I would rather give it a couple of months of not taking herbals to see if my Zoloft starts working. I don't think that anti-psychotics are really all that necessary.

Update on Alex

Alex is doing pretty well after his surgery. His eyes look a bit funny where they cut them. Still a bit "brown" and funky but I'm sure that will go away eventually. He is still favoring his right eye and I can't keep a patch on him to save my life. SIGH. I have to call the eye dr tomorrow so they can call the insurance company for prior authorization on his eye drops. So I'm gonna ask him to give me a script for the drops that I can put in the right eye that will make it blury instead of fighting with the patch.

The drops I have to call for prior authorization on are supposed to make it easier for him to focus. His eyes are still crossing. They said that is because it is hard for him to focus. So hopefully the drops will help.

I'm taking Frog to have his hair cut soon and then I am taking them to have their pictures done. I got some gift cards from JCPenney for Christmas. I love how they do their pics there. Although it always costs me TONS of money because I always love all the pics they take. LOL!

As for me, well, is it possible to love your life and be depressed at the same time? I love that DH stays home with the kids. I don't even mind my MIL living here. But sometimes it's just too much stress and makes me SO freakin tired. I just want to go to bed and stay there for days. I am supposed to go to the dr's tomorrow and I'm going to have to talk to him about my meds. I hate talking to that man about my meds. He needs to just do what I fucking tell him to do instead of acting like an ass before I get myself a new dr that WILL do what I tell him to do. I hate to be bitchy to him but it's startin to look like I'm gonna have to put my foot down tomorrow. BLAH

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Happy and Prosperous New Year to all!